Thursday, July 10, 2014

LITERACY AUTOBIOGRAPHY [a version of the truth and a shitty first half-draft; multigenre project]

--What are your first memories of reading & writing?
--Who influenced you? Who influences you today?
--How have reading & writing helped to develop your identity?
--Who are significant people and what are significant experiences you’ve had as a student that have impacted your teaching practice?  


Pretty Lights : Age 4

I remember riding in the backseat of my parents’ 1976 pea-green Valeri, my cheek pressed to the vinyl, and looking out to see the street signs along Eau Claire’s Hastings Way. This must have been after I’d turned four, when my parents, concerned about the number of bruises accumulating on my small legs, shoulders and forehead, took me to the eye doctor only to learn I was about as blind and clumsy as my 92-year-old great grandmother. Oh, what pretty lights, I’m famous for exclaiming when the world came into focus with my new pink plastic bifocals. Soon I was able to notice everything. No street sign or billboard went unobserved. If I didn’t understand what a sign was for, I had no fear of asking. “Mom, what’s a virgin?” I’m told I asked one day, but luckily my attention had already wandered by the time my mom responded she didn’t know.  

             The Naming of Things : Age 5

When I was small my dad worked at the paper mill and he was always smuggling home freebies: diapers, napkins, toilet paper.  I remember the afternoon before I started preschool he covered our dining room table with a large sheet of butcher paper, torn unevenly at one end, and pulled out a purple crayon from its box. “I will not let any daughter of mine go to the first day of school without knowing how to write her first and last name.”  He then printed our name where his dinner plate should have been. He began with our first name, with a large, loopy “J” followed by the vowels and sandwiched consonant. The letters were only a little more distinct than from how I noticed he  signed a check at the grocery story, in one giant and hasty flourish. 
            Jamie Utphall not only gave me his name, but also gave the power of naming things myself, of language.  I still remember our difference in handwriting on that first instructional tablecloth, his part script, and my version, which included at least one of my letters traced backwards.
           Not too much later,  I remember him sitting me down for a similar ritual when I first learned our phone number and address by heart. I learned the numbers and corresponding names, and more numbers, when and for whom I was allowed to repeat this information, and when and for whom I  could not.  I then remember sitting on the patterned rug of kindergarten and feeling surprised when a few of my classmates couldn’t spew forth their own telephone book entries, or at least make something up! Because another lesson my dad taught me, and made sure I would never forget, was that we were smart, which has proven to  confuse my ever-budding confidence ever since.
            For the past twenty years I know I haven’t always given credit to my father for teaching me these things because instead I have let my scorn and blame for his absences fester, and for all the ways he has fallen short.  Does he deserve to walk me down the aisle some day? What do we owe those who give us our names and the ability to name things for ourselves? 

The Library : Age 5 – Present

            Trips to the library have always been more fruitful than any birthday or Christmas morning. I remember I always loved the pleasure of finding my own books, but somehow the books my mom chose for me were always so much better.  I remember one in particular where zoo animals ran an old-fashioned grocery store. I remember the elephant, in overalls and cufflinks, carrying a wooden crate across the produce department.  I remember sprawling one the floor of the stacks like it was my own bedroom floor.  Even now I would rather wander and see what you’ve found than bother with the curt efficiency of a call number.

Incentive : Age 6

I remember reading logs in the first grade where we had to document how many minutes (at least 10) we read or were read to each night at home with our families.  For every 100 minutes logged, we could earn a Book-IT Pizza Hut coupon for a free personal pan, which was basically a party back in those days.  I still remember Bucky “Boyd” Badger, our elementary school’s mascot, cheering me on from the corner of the reading log, cuddled up with his Baby Badger, enjoying a bedtime story.

The Gift of the Classics : Age 10 - present

It’s always Christmas, when the assignments come. It’s about time you read my Anne of Green Gables, my grandma prompted. Never, to this day. 

And now she won’t let it go about the Charles Dickens.  The cricket on the mantle.  The Thames. She gave me a hardback copy of Our Mutual Friend last Christmas and the expectation that I was to read it soon and show up for tea. While the audiobook was helpful, I still have about a third of the way to go, which puts me back at page 1 in terms of understanding the plot.  What can I say, I am too easily distracted by Haruki Murami’s double moons and talking cats, David Mitchell’s reincarnation and friendly cyborgs, and every other new-fangled contemporary author my grandmother has no patience for.

Persuasive Writing : Age 10

Once in the 5th grade instead of grounding me for talking back, my mom assigned me to write her a letter of apology.  Unfortunately for me, she never chose this as an effective method of punishment again.

Nutrients : Age 26

It wasn’t until I became a teacher that I learned about the concept and supposed epidemic of word poverty.  Weren’t everyone’s houses filled with books, magazines, and obsolete encyclopedias? Old calendars, diaries half-filled, grocery lists, old notebooks, and elegant, expensive cookbooks? Or at least an internet full of trashy top ten lists and Facebook newsfeeds?

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